Each of us has an idea of who they are inside and out. On the outside we have an appearance and behavior that we use to interact with the world and it’s how others see us.
Our outer self image is the concept of what you think you look like and are see to others, is a very visual and interactive self. I don’t usually like getting my photo taken. This is because when I see the result I realize I don’t look like the image I have of myself in my mind. In reality, i’m a little fatter than what I think I am. I look a little too cuddly, and not stoic enough. But that really doesn’t bother me much. I just avoid getting my picture taken.
Recently, I was the subject or model for a friend. She is an amateur photographer and needed a model. I thought I could help her out, and maybe work on my own insecurities on having my photo taken. We had a blast taking photos and having photos taken respectively. The shots turned out great. Shelly you really out did yourself.
The inner self image is different. It is the way you think you are on the inside. For some people they are the same inside and out. The way they behave is truly who they are. However most of us have a self that is secret to others, that we keep quiet and hidden away to most everyone. This hidden self influences our outer behavior and directs us in ways we might not understand. For this reason I feel it is very important to discover my own true inner self. Much of my own personal growth over the last years has been a result of me finding truths about myself.
Given that, I find it interesting when a friend expresses that they have made a discovery about their true inner self. I would like to think that their discover can lead them toward a new understanding of their own behaviors and possibly… just maybe… be able to start positive change in their life.
A friend recently, as in today, came to the understanding that he is “too fucked up” to have anyone else in his life right now. For this I’m very certain he meant it in a romantic sense. In this case, having tangentially observed his recent attempts at relationships with females, he is right. My opinion is that he has some serious mental house keeping and toss out some trash, prepare a clean space and let things settle.
Additionally this save fellow has decided he is far too judgmental towards other people and their life choices. For this I know he is correct, and that he finally figured this out. I only hope that this can lead to more thought spent on why other people make the decisions they do. I hope that this might lead towards a greater sense of empathy. Something that will help him with all his future relationships.
I wish my friend luck. I hope he can profit (emotionally) by this experience. That he can gain a greater knowledge of his inner self.
I’m looking at my calendar now for the upcoming week. It looks pretty empty, especially compared to last week. Things pick up again around the weekend when I head back to Red Deer to to visit the folks and to partake in the celebration of a friend’s birthday!
This weekend was a busy one (as was the last week.) Saturday was one part hangover recovery from the fun times had on Friday, one part visiting with friends, and one part Calgary Philharmonic Orchestra. It was a great day! Continuing onto Sunday’s epic sleep in (rolling out of bed after 8:30 am is epic for me,) then a day of doing dishes and laundry and playing Little Big Planet, then off to Audra’s for a BBQ and trivia games!
I was also kicked and punched by an 5 year old. I still maintain that I could have kicked his ass. At least I’m pretty sure.
Here’s looking forward to a week where I might be able to catch up on some household cleaning. Getting my room clean, laundry done, finish up the kitchen… and maybe, just maybe tackle my bathroom.