There have been lots of times in my life where I have felt guilty. I can say that many of these time It was justified. I was guilty of something. But not all.
Having been raised in a catholic environment, all be it not a strongly practicing one, the concept of guilt was ingrained by the religion of my society. There was guilt before being born, in the act of being conceived even. Growing up I learned to feel guilt for things I’m not guilty of. Shedding myself of unearned guilt has been an ongoing process. It is not nearly complete and may never be.
I don’t like feeling guilty. If I could put a physical sensation to it, it would be like being having a stuffy nose, not being able to blow it, and then getting the chills. Yet I allow myself to feel guilty for things that I should not feel guilty for.
But recently… due to a set of events, I have been prodded into feeling guilty for making friends, and for being a good friend. This makes me sick. This is the last thing anyone should feel guilty for.
Today I choose not to feel guilty for being a friend.
~RyeNCode~